A message to a girl in New Jersey- 5'6, with tan skin and hair dyed black, skinny, with "ugly" brown eyes, a dark mind, and a flair for art- this is to you. You are making the same mistake I did. You are missing out on a great thing, and it's a chance you won't get back. Maybe you'll never miss it, but I hope you do. You damn well deserve it.

In other news, I LOVE MAH POKEMANZZZ!!! LET ME SHOW UTHEM. It's me and Nikki's Gastlys, Toliver and Giro. 8D Giro is Nikki's and he's the lighter one.

Take me baby, or leave me~<3

Man, I LOVE this song. Even though I don't like Rent.... this song is so cute, but the end makes me mad every time. X'D I love how everyone stares like oAo and follows them around the rooms, it was an almost realistic response to people breaking into song, unlike in most musical scenes.

Finally!

I finally finished the picture for my little nieces! Allybug is the yellow pup, Nikki is the white wolf, I'm the brown spotty one and Megan is the husky wolf. <3 There are a lot of things I don't like about this picture, but it took a LONG TIME, so it's alright.


I also finished Creepy!Axel for Nikki today. maybe take pics later. (I ate too much dinner, I'm so fat that I can't even work up the energy for complete sentences)

I hate guessing games. I hate Nikki's crushes. I hate the fact that I HATE everything.

I LOVE Say Anything. 8D

Rendezvous

and I'm through with you. 8D Looove that song.

Um, um, OH YAH. This is for a trade with someone on deviantart. It's her mate's fursona, Noir.

I'm taking a break from YIM and MSN messangers this week, trying to catch up with real friends and finish x-mas gifts, etc... Also, I feel like I've run out of stuff to say. X'D It's really irritating.

That is why

"That is why you'll never, ever, in a goddamn millennium, be my giiiiiiiirl." I love that song.... That Is Why, by Say Anything. I'm in love with that band right now. 8D


This is my character Babylon. <3 He's a mecha.
This is YOWIE.


This is a picture of me and Nikki, photoshopped like whoah.

8D; Hallo

Sorry for my emo-ing yesterday... erm, I'm hormonal. But anyways, Selah is coming to live with us for awhile.... I would be like "o noes celibacy" But I'm already celibate. LOL.

but they never seem to last

Missed the Boat by Modest Mouse

While we're on the subject
Could we change the subject now?
I was knocking on your ears
Don't worry, you were always out
Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well we knew we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Oh please just last

Lately, I don't care about the future. I don't care if today turns into tomorrow, I don't care if the world turns into dust. All I think about/wish for/want is the past. Sorry for the emo drivel, I feel AWFUL right now. DX

Unfair

Have you ever noticed, the world is a really shitty, unfair place? I have. I almost wish fate would crap all over me, cos I deserve it more than the people who DO get the short end of the shit. Anywayssss, drew some stuff.

Unmotivated

Don't you hate those days where you just don't want to do anything? Blech. I have a headache and an inferiority complex, and I'm dreading talking to the Jehovah's Witnesses because I'm cranky and don't know where my bible is. I feel like I should draw or fill out job applications but I can't bring myself to it, so I'm just rocking out loudly to Say Anything and Drop Dead, Gorgeous. XD

I'm full of spite and uselessness. DX Probably, I need to be kicked.

I saw the Golden Compass yesterday~! It was pretty good, but of course the end was unsatisfying, since it's a trilogy. I lvoed the bear. BUT OMG OMG OMG. OMG. The bets part was when I was watching the trailers because they had a preview for an INKHEART MOVIE! I made a big scene over it and my friends told me to stfu. XD Do want.........

More arts 8D

My life is boring right now.... hum, let's see..... still being goaded into getting a job. Hate applications. Also, Curtis is still harassing me. Well, he just wants to date me, but I'm like, "no. DX" He wants to know where I hang out at lunch now. Gahh. In his ignorance, he had the nerve to draw checkers on a note to me. He sees me draw checkers all the time, but I am a deep well, and he stepped the bit w/ sharks in it. >O

here's some drawings. LARXNIX?? Hah, it's Nikki's Organization OC Colenix and Larxene. And the other one is my new Deviantart ID.

Lots of furry art

Finished the other two character sheets for my nieces. The top on is Allison's, the next on it Megan's. At the bottom there is a request for Dai (he's the tiger) and his friend J.

Am I nuts?

So, what do you think... am I nuts? Earlier, Nikki was telling me that she thinks I have Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes, people walking near my room or the front door opening stresses me out really bad, and the phone ringing sometimes even makes me hyperventilate. I told my mom and SHE thinks I have depression, and that I freak out because I want to be isolated. I don't think I do want to be isolated though. My mom suggested, I donno, mental help or something. As if I would ever let me mind would ever become an open forum for administrating. DX That's worse than that of people messing with my computer.

I want to get a job (No I don't, not a bit. I want people to stop bugging me to get a job. I want to not have to get a job) and if I had a job I would do it without complaint. But I have an unnatural dread of job applications, interviews, and going to places in search of jobs. Anyways, my mom says that she'll make sure I get to see Niki this week only if I go look for jobs as well, which is ironic. When my paranoia and panic attacks get bad I think of bad scenarios all the time, and one of the ones I thought up earlier were my folks saying "If you don't find a job in one week, you're grounded from seeing Nikki for a year." I know they aren't very similar, but for some reason it freaked me out really bad. (as if that means anything XD)

NEWAYS. When my nieces and I were little, we played wolves all the time (and sometimes still do, actually) so for x-mas, I'm going character sheets of wolves for them. This one is Megan's wolf, Ally's is coming next. I might do a character sheet for Nikki's wolf as well, although she just looks like an older version of her fursona. If I'm really ambitious I'll draw my wolf, who looks like a wolf version of my fursona.